May 25, 2004
Decisions,decisions..Should I buy the house that my wife,Jill, is leaving to go to VTC or stay in my apartment? Can I afford it? Will it be a downer living there,knowing that was the same house that I thought my dream of a happy family life would materialize? I hurt so bad about having Kiernan being away from me... I wrote a poem when I was 18 in which I railed against my father for not telling me of his life.. It must have been rough with an alcoholic father and all. I felt as though I was cheated for not knowing more about him. I swore that if I had a son I would tell him everything he wanted to know. Now, I will no longer be able to be around him as much,and will lose many chances of learning about each other.....I wanted to be the dad that my father never was.